Green is for Remembrance
So now green is for remembrance,
And yellow roses too.
And the slippers in the hall
That lie and wait here still, for you.
You’re everywhere in my home,
And in my garden too.
And yet nowhere in my life,
And I don’t know what to do.
From, the pegs on the washing line,
To your special china cup,
From pictures on the walls,
To London in a book.
And what will I do now on Sundays
When it gets to our 8 o’clock call?
Who shall I phone to wish goodnight
Now that you’re no place I can call.
Oh I’ve cried a river alright,
And all of its tributaries too.
Because it’s hard not think of what might have been,
When memories can’t yet pull me through.
Because everywhere there is you,
And yet nowhere is there you.
2013

This one came about a month after mum died, and the first few lines came all at once, as they sometimes do, and then the rest followed on. I think it flows really well and brings up many images that mean so much. For a long time after she died, I felt lost, especially so on Sundays at 8pm. I still have her number in my phone, I probably always will. This was published in a volume of Forward Poetry books too – one of the ones where I enter the competitions, never win, but get published.
PUBLISHED in Light Up the Dark A collection of Poetry Forward Poetry 2014 (Ed. Shobhna Patel) p214